How your living space can affect your mood!

Something ive noticed in the past few months is how your living space can play a major role in the way we feel and act. I wouldn't say it is something totally unheard of before but its something ive only just got to experience. As ive said ive moved back home, my living space has therefore become a lot smaller, something i hated to start with. what can i do with this small bedroom? how can i fit all my stuff here? To be honest everything was a huge mess for a while and that was after i had tidied lol. I feel like it affected me, because it was already looking messy i allowed it to get worse, nothing had a specific place so what was the point? it made me feel so unmotivated, i didnt have a clear space to think.or do anything. my mind was always preoccupied on my living space and the fact i could do "nothing" about it. it was driving me mad.

Obviously, its hard to get out of a cycle when the cycle is just rearranging things to make them look the best with a hopeless outcome every time. Then one day i realised this is clearly not going to get any better unless i change something. So i managed to get hold of some under bed storage. This seemed to change everything. Suddenly a lot of things had a place where they wouldn't be visible but i could still access them easily. this allowed more room for things to be neatly organised where they would be visible. i also spent time getting rid of a lot of things i don't really need. clothes, shoes, random crap that was just taking up space. needless to say i got rid of a lot of things that were just not necessary to keep. Suddenly i felt like everything changed i had got to grips with my room and things suddenly looked a lot better. This made me feel so motivated, i had my space and just generally felt happier, i could walk into my room and not see a complete mess. This is when i realised that you can become affected by your living environment, it can make you feel unmotivated because a lot of your time you are spent in what you deem a hopeless situation you transfer these feelings onto other areas in your life.

Because of this crazy revelation i realised that i wanted my living space to be as "me" as possible. i wanted it to look nice, i wanted to feel good and motivated when i was there. Having a small bedroom, means you have to make the most of the space you have got. i rearranged furniture so that i could have as much floor space as possible, i got a bigger chest of drawers so that i could put so much more stuff in there, and im in the process of repainting my walls - something ive wanted to do for a while. I have also bought a few pieces for decoration. some canvases with quotes on and some candles. I set the mood for my room and it brings me a better mood in life.

I recommend to anybody unhappy with there living space to change it, it certainly doesn't have to be expensive but you can do some research and figure out how to best make use of the space you have got! it makes all the difference trust me!

Make your living space as "you" as possible. You will feel so much better, you may not think it but its really true!

(These images were found on pinterest and i really love them :))

Has anybody else ever noticed this or felt this way? xoxo

What does my life look like right now?

Having already wrote the blog post explaining the name of the actual blog ect, here we are with my first proper blogpost. My first opportunity to write until my heart desires. There isn't going to be any particular topic of this post just that I want to have a post to look back on. A personal post in which I can look back on and think about how my life has changed. So where do I stand today? A graduate looking for a job. That would perfectly sum up my situation right now. That is literally it. There really isn't much else going on in life right now. (Maybe sheer boredom was the catalyst to the blog I have wanted  to create for so long being created?)

I have always been somebody described as the "quiet" one, going to university slightly changed that aspect of me,although still shy I had a pretty good life at university. Particularly my first year - I look back with such fondness of that year. Second and third year was good too but anxiety definitely took over more in that time. Now three years later, I don't feel excited and I don't feel as though my life has any direction. That's hard especially when you can't see a clear path ahead of you. I don't know what I want to do or be, this means I feel as though my life has been put on halt until I figure it out. Harder than it seems though for me. You could ask me what my dream job was, the ideal job that I wouldn't mind doing forever and I would not be able to tell you what that is. ive never known the answer to that question. I have never had a set career in mind throughout any of my studies. Any subjects I  have chose to study in the past, prior to my degree and also my degree I  have chose because they are subjects I thought I would enjoy/did/do enjoy. That sounds great but at the end where does that leave you when you haven't then got any idea what to do because you really didn't have anything to work towards except for good grades? I need to figure it out ASAP. Until then I have to find any job to do - you know I kind of need one in life. The reason I talk about university is because I feel envious of the person I was in first year, I remember feeling and thinking to myself at that time how genuinely happy I was. Don't get me wrong I have always been happy its just life was so good then. I had moved somewhere new, met new people, started a degree and was absolutely loving it. I feel as though i have regressed in life, I have now moved back home with no job and not meeting anybody new. My friends from home and my friends from university are all doing such exciting things I feel as though I am the only one stuck in this rut. - I am definitely determined to get out of it, future self if you read this, I hope your happy and loving life. Lets say a somewhat future distant self, its gonna take a lot of work I'm sure. obviously the ball starts rolling now but I would hope in a year I am so much happier and honestly as bad as it sounds I hope my life is different to how it is now.

I don't want it to sound as though I have a terrible life. I really don't I just know I could be so much happier if I were to change a  few things.These are them:

Not be unemployed - obvious reasons. its horrible being unemployed I am home all day on my own, I don't think that is good for anybody. When I do socialise with friends it can never be anything too exciting due to lack of funds. Also I love to shop, again need some funds to do that! ahaha

Lost some weight - I haven't been looking after myself in regard to eating/exercise. I feel as though it's quite an easy thing to lost track of when your life has no direction lol. But I need to get on it, I feel better when i eat healthier anyway so once I start it should be easier to continue. I just want to look and feel better than I do now.

Get my own place - I have never experienced living completely on my own and I think it would be something that I would love. I like my space to be my space. I like quiet and I like to do things how I want to do them. That may make me seem hard to live with but rather then being hard to live with I usually just ignore the fact that things are not like this despite how much I would love them to be. This is especially the case at the moment after moving back home. Its not the worst situation to be in but its not the best and something I want to change. This will definitely take time but I am happy for it to be a long term goal right now. Once the first goal has been achieved, I can start saving some money for it anyway!

As you can see these goals are not my major life goals or bucket list goals or anything just some things that will improve my life from what it is like right now. I feel as though if I can achieve these goals I could become a much happier person as my life will start having some movement and purpose again.

So there is a slight look at my life right now and I hope I can look back on this post and say yes I have achieved those three goals and yes I am really happy right now. That is my wish anyway I guess we can only wait and see xoxo

What does anonymousfbl mean?

I decided a long time ago i wanted to create a blog. Not sure why but i was always so envious reading through other peoples blogs, reading about their lives, things they love (beauty and fashion) and things they don't. I wanted my own place to talk about anything and everything i could ever possible imagine. However one thing has always drew me back from making the step of creating one. Confidence. Yep that's right - confidence. Its stopped me from doing a lot of things in life actually but ill just talk about why its stopped me from making a blog. The main reason is because i couldn't ever imagine how i would feel if someone (who i personally know/just generally know) found out. How would i explain what i am doing and why i am  doing it? I make blogging sound as though its very taboo - its not its actually amazing and has blew up all over the internet in the last several years. The issue though is how would I explain why I'M doing it. What makes me think I can? Do I think I am good enough of doing it? Do I think I am interesting enough for it to be popular?

Those are the questions I feel people would ask me, those are the questions I  am scared of answering. People might not even ask those questions in fact would they even care? I don't know. But unfortunately for me I am not confident enough to find out. Having anxiety also doesn't help as it further pushes my ideas of what others would think to the extreme.

Hence the name of this blog. Anonymous - fashion, beauty & lifestyle. All my thoughts about fashion beauty and lifestyle in a blog format, how I  have always been envious of others laying out their thoughts on the topics but in an anonymous manner. Perfect. I am excited to write, I have always loved doing it and I feel this gives me such freedom to do it. Its quite refreshing that you can put all your thoughts out there and it'll be there forever. What an exciting thought. I think ill write a few blog posts back to back just because there is a few things I want to talk about. like i said this will be a combination of lifestyle, beauty and fashion. lots of topics and my thoughts on them. Not a single person might be interested in what I  have to say and that is fine because it doesn't matter because I am happy that I have somewhere to share my thoughts that has the potential of people also reading it.

Anyway that's my explanation of what my blog is and i am looking forward to writing more xoxo